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| 02:02pm 07/01/2010 |
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mood:  amused
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After too many days of running around in the cold, I've decided that Kaylee and I are staying in today to get stuff done around the house. So she's in almost matching play clothes, so I don't have to worry about what she might want to play with, she can get as messy as she likes, and I am in some black yoga pants (that stop right under the belly) and a white maternity T, except the shirt is too small for my massive belly and it barely goes below my belly button. I didn't even bother to do my hair, just let it dry by itself so I am looking extra hot. Andy is sooo gonna want a piece of this when he gets home, LOL. |
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| big dose of crazy |
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| 11:57pm 06/01/2010 |
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mood:  hormonal
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This is the part of pregnancy that isn't fun. Hormones.
I feel chock full of crazy. I was fine a few minutes ago but now I just want to cry, over everything. Over photography (my work isn't good enough), over the mess in the house (but I can't reach the floor to pick anything up because I am massive, I think I have my own gravitational pull now), over how much is left to be done before the baby is born, which you know, could happen anytime after Sunday...
I am suddenly terrified of getting sick because how in the hell would I be able to do the whole labor and delivery things while sick? I hate cold/flu season.
People had better not give me crap this time around about my desire for a natural birth. I did it with Kaylee, and I'm going to do it for this little guy. I won't get into my reasons why unless someone asks, because it seems ot be a touchy subject, but I am really dedicated to it. I think I am getting a doula this time around (well, a doula in training, can't afford a real doula), and we learned a bit about lamaze bc I wasn't so great at the Bradley Method of dealing with pain.
I hope my labor is shorter. It was really, insanely long with Kaylee. but I think it had a lot to do with my total failure at Bradley, so I was fighting every contraction. Which is why I want to use a doula this time.
I'm rambling. I'm tired. I should go to bed. |
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| yay |
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| 02:31pm 04/01/2010 |
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mood:  cold
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I just bought a wacom tablet :) Hurry up and ship it!
In other news, Kaylee is not napping. This is sad.
In other, other news, I am huge.
That is all. |
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| PS.... |
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| 12:38am 03/01/2010 |
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mood: amused
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Feeling as big as a house. And I technically have 4 weeks to go, though who knows how long he wants to stay in there. He technically only HAS to stay in there another week.
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| 36 weeks tomorrow.... |
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| 11:13pm 02/01/2010 |
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Kaylee has been moved into her big girl room. We are going to be sprucing up the nursery for baby brother this week/next weekend.
I cannot believe it's almost time. We've got to start thinking about packing up the hospital bag... we met with a friend of mine tonight to talk about lamaze (I didn't fare very well on the bradley method and I want to have a natural childbirth again.... that was seriously the most empowering amazing experience of my life). We are likely going to have her come be a doula for the birth as well.
I posted this on FB, but I will ask here, too.... does anyone want to be notified when he's born? We will do the phone tree again because it seemed to work really well. Unless you tell me otherwise, I will assume that you want to be notified during "decent hours" if he's born in the middle of the night.... however, if you want a real time "HE'S HERE!" text or call no matter what time, we have a list for that, too :) |
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| This is going to be the worst new years ever. |
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| 02:07pm 31/12/2009 |
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music: chinese guards are looking for me in Splinter Cell.
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what a way to top off the shittiest decade yet. Let's see.
2000: Graduated highschool, went to guam, almost didn't come back. Started the retail gauntlet. Also started doing the con circuit.
2001: got my driver's license. Started college. 911 did some weird shit to all of that. College got put on hold.
2003: started at AiW. jamie couldn't come too. Lost a really good friend. Haven't had that good a friend since.
2004: left jeremy, who i'd been with since my sophomore year in highschool. Started dating adam.
2005: Had a melt down, and was at the height of both physically and mentally ill. Left Adam for Stein. I become a suicide girl.
2006: School ate me alive. Took portfolio all. year. long. Graduated in december, finally.
2007: Gauntlet of interviews begins. Found ideal starting job, worked at ICOR Partners for 3 months, and was let go. Stein and i broke up. First ex boyfriend that won't leave me alone. My sister got married.
2008: Worked at New Horizons. Moved out of my parents house. They let me go and wouldn't tell me why. Stein continues to dick me around. I get him a job there. He moves back to DC. things get harder. I take some time to travel.
2009: I live in Vienna without a job on my own. I take a "room mate / couch surfer thing" with a coworker from ICOR. I take some more time to travel. After years of heartache, i remove myself from the idea that stein and i will get back together. Courtenay joins the navy and moves to Great Lakes for training. Lose apartment. Lost close relative in the worst possible way. Worst year of my life, and surprised that my typical reaction to such events didn't kick in. Silver lining?
I hope to start 2010 with more traveling. Still mourning my grandfather, my lover, and the life i almost had. maybe i can spend the year doing some healing.
( ugh, drama. )
Well! In an attempt to not sulk over the last year, how about another pic dump!
Molly posted this for me, and it is more than apt.
Wow, you can see this design dork coming a mile away.
On a similar note, you typography people might enjoy this conversation someone on my Flist had. :D |
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| I heart memes |
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| 10:21am 30/12/2009 |
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mood: amused
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2000-2010:
A decade in review meme
It's hard to believe it's been ten years! These meme exists to highlight everything that made us who we are over the last ten years. Feel free to fill this out and send it around!
Original + copypaste code can be found here: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) awakenedpoet
( 2000-2010 meme ) |
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| 12:51am 30/12/2009 |
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It's Barackbar.
Hey now, this isn't THAT crazy.
Trip to Fantasia, anyone?
"And Be Sure to Get a Gift Receipt"
"Based on the flowery pajama bottoms and lacy panties, I’m going to venture a guess that this is a woman. So I don’t know what exactly she has to offer in the way of mustache rides, but I’m willing to bet they’re not worth more than a penny. Two cents tops."
I got three Splinter Cell games for christmas, so i'm playing Splinter Cell for the first time, and i'm wondering how the HELL i didn't play this when it originally came out. DAMNIT SCHOOL, NOT GIVING ME TIME TO ENJOY THIS.
( This one is NSFW, so under a cut it goes. ) |
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| new moon this week? |
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| 08:58pm 27/12/2009 |
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anyone willing to see New Moon with me this week? Andy is on vacation so I can go whenever. Pretty please? |
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| 10:40am 27/12/2009 |
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I have been lax about posting, but today I am inexplicably hyper and decided that was a good enough reason to post my happiness!
I am pleased to note that for Christmas I received a few things I had hoped for and asked for! Amazing! Wonderful!
I now have two sets of Prismacolour pencils, one little 12 set and a 48 set in a tin. Now to put my creative juices to work and maybe do some commissions. I shall have to set aside time for drawing, most definitely.
Also got a couple sketchbooks to go with those pencils, very handy since I wasn't inclined to pay 5 bucks for a ream of printer paper. Printer paper is good, cheap practice paper, yeah?
I also am now the proud owner of a Singer sewing machine. HAH! And with a fabric store right up the road, I am pretty set. All I need to do is figure out patterns.
And as silly as it sounds, I am also happy to have gotten 4k Microsoft Points for my budding XBox Live habit. *Dances* Now I can get silly outfits for my avatar, and extra game stuff.
A cookbook and file box for recipes are also very handy, good stuff! And spices to make the cooking of things more awesome still. Even a couple of casserole dishes, which is useful since we hadn't gotten those yet.
My sister hooked me up with a set of herbs for indoors made by the Chia Pet people. Very awesome, fresh herbs are nice.
And while I hadn't expressly stated I wanted the game, I got Assassin's Creed II, which is very pretty and I need to get around to opening so I can give it a go. Try not to drool all over the controller because that outfit is so awesome.
I think I am forgetting something, but yesh! I had a wonderful Christmas this year, and am happy happy happy even two days later. So happy I am hyper, heh. |
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| "I used to be a connoisseur of hate, self hate, paternal hate." |
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| 03:19am 27/12/2009 |
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Lamya Black - Mona Lisa lyrics
But oh I am not afraid
To be a lone bohemian
I can paint a portrait of myself
I will call me a black Mona Lisa
Mona Lisa
Come to discover - I am your daughter
The sky above me is silent and empty
I am an island
A little freak of melancholy
But these hands
They unbead your rosary of wisdom
Bewitched, spellbound I'm found
And returned from superstition
You are my martyr
I'm a vestige of a revolution
My alma, my mater
And now I can let go
My old addictive solutions
CHORUS
I used to be a connoisseur
Of hate, self hate, paternal hate
Hate cum gratis
I connected every kind
Sipping it like red wine
The insecurity was mine
The ties that bind were
My design
But oh I am not afraid
To be a lone bohemian
The sun is still unkind
To those like you and me
Seekers of sanctuary
Though I'm not afraid
I'm sanctified and fortified
Because you sacrified
I can call myself Mona Lisa
Mona Lisa, Mona Lisa,
Men have adored you
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I don't know what my infatuation with this song is, given that I really didn't like (but tried to) the other songs from her.
EDIT (for the sleepies): I was tired when posting this so I forgot to mention the main reason I was posting it. While on a scary YouTube 3AM musical odyssey I stumbled across a more up tempo version of this song (I prefer the slow) and came to learn through the video comments that the artist has died unexpectedly of a heart attack last January (she was only 35). It was just a shock. |
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| 01:05am 26/12/2009 |
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happy ho ho, folks. I now have new laptop, but no software until stein gets back. ::siiiigh::
 christ people, read a BOOK!
best. teacher. evar.
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